once again, i'm sorry that i never post, but its not like anyone REALLY cares, aside from juan miky and anna. sok though, i dont mind!

just as an update, anna and I have fallen more in love than ever before. i was away for five days, cause of my parents anniversary, and we went to disney world. it was a fine trip, but i would have had a much better time if anna was there at my side. o well. now that im back though, its like we've been apart months, yet not at all. we clearly missed eachother, and we clearly showed it when we were reunited. honestly, last night, tuesday: december 6 2005, was the best day of my life, regardless of small problems that arose.

just to sum up, i'm love! there is no other word that can describe it. anna is the one person that I want to spend the rest of my life with, and I dont care what it takes to ensure that happens. shes smart, funny, beautiful, nice, random, just perfect in everyway! she is exactly the type of girl that Ive always wanted to be with, and more.

the best part of all this is that she has the exact same feelings for me! it was amazing when we saw eachother tuesday, since that was the first day we'd seen eachother since I left for florida. our eyes met, and all I saw in her way joy, and relief! we both instantly broke out in smiles, ran to eachother, hugged, kissed, laughed, smiled some more! WOW. those few seconds were easily the highlight of the past week.

Later that night, we just proved our love MORE. Now, we feel like a more mature couple.

She is my life, the oly thing that matters to me right now. all i want is to make her happy, and to be there when she needs me.

Anna's porbably the only one who's still reading this...
and if she is,

¶ 9:26 PM //

I know its been a really long time for me, and to those of you who care, I'm sorry. So I'm sure I'm only really speaking to Anna on this...
Wow, over a month has past since the last article, but I am sorry to say that not a whole lot has changed. School hsa started, and it could be better, work is still going on, and that could always use a tune up, and Anna and I are still together, thank the higher powers that be.
So I guess I'll start from the beginning of the school year...
School is back in session, and so far, my schedule is pretty sweet! I start of the day with Graphics, where I learn to use Photoshop, and IMovies. I seem to have a knack for this kind of thing, so I'm glad I took the class. I had Senior Release second block, but all I ever did was sit in on Anna's music theory class. The cool thing about it is I never paid to much attention, and I never took notes, but when it was test time in the class, I took it for kicks, and aced it! I understood all the material in that class better than some of the students already learning music! I feel a bit egotistical about saying this, but when one scores higher on a quiz, and in less time than the other students in the class, one feels pretty darn special.
Moving on...
Third block, I have Crime and Justice. Thats a difficult class for me because I dont understand law. I took the class in hopes of understanding, but it isnt working out... its a nice class though.
Next...
Last block of the day, I have Computer Integrated Manufacturing (CIMs). Thats an awsome class, cause I know everything about the subject already, and I know everyone in the class already!

On to work.
Since the beginning of the summer, the dining service department has been short of staff, because Smjilka, one of the waitresses, quit. It hasnt been much of a problem, until now. Todd has had to hire a new person, Melissa, and that helped a little. But we're still two people short of a full dining crew... it seems no one can work on Thursdays, Debbie can only work (badly) in the mornings, Sarah has college at bad hours, Sharon is on retirement, Jimmie is slacking in the chef department, Melissa is brand new, so kinda slow, AND Anna and I are still in high school! Other than that, work has been ok, with the final exception of the abundance of Dessert Buffet on days that I work...

Now what we've all been waiting for... ANNA
Anna is still, and forever will be the center of all my attention. It seems every week, we've discover something new about ourselves and our relationship that only increases our love for one another. Its been nearly five months since we started dating, and its been increasing bliss all along the way! No one else on the planet has made me this happy, no one has made me feel like this. Seriously, I am one of the luckiest guys on Earth to have found such an Angel. Shes everything I could ever want in a partner, funny, smart, beautiful, random, nice, caring. Sure, these are all basic wants by any guys standards, but I found a girl that has ALL of these qualities in my first pick!!!

So in conclusion, I suppose I'm back into the blogging scene, and life basically rocks!

¶ 9:55 PM //

¶ 11:35 AM //

*sigh*

summers almost over...
and theres nothing to do about it

with summer coming so soon, I realize just how lucky and fortunate I am for this summer. Without a doubt, this has been the best summer Ive ever had, and its sad for it to go. There are multiple reasons why I like this summer more than others.

One: I have a great job
I like working at whitaker place. Its a freindly environment, with great residents, the hours are good, the pay is cool, i live right next door, and I get to see Anna like EVERY SUNDAY, all day.
My boss Todd, is, for the most part, a fun boss. Hes the kind of guy thats casual, and mellow during work hours, but serious enough to get the job done well, right, and efficiently. Sure, not everyone is perfect, sometimes he gets on my nerves, and makes me feel insignificant... but what kind of boss DOESNT do that to lower employess?!?!
The residents of the home are entertaining, if not enjoyable. Though it is sorta mean to slam the elderly, it is interesting to watch them as they think for what they want for dessert, or what kind of coffee theyd like for the meal. Sometimes, they look for their fellow old folks at the table for guidence, as if THEY know what they want...
and some of the residents are really nice to just sit and chat with when one is not busy. Just cause they cant see u, doesnt mean they dont think ur there. just cause they have false teeth, and speech issues, doesnt mean they cant verbally communicate any longer. Just cause they cant hear, doesnt mean they arent listening.
old ppl rock!!!

Two: Freedom
For the past X summers, (x being a large # of years that I have failed to keep track of) Ive been going to the PCC day camp. Basically, from 9 till 4, we play lots of sports and running games, until we leave, or until we collapse. for the past 4 years, Ive been a CIT, which means I can boss around the little kids, but still have fun playing games.
However, with that, I would be forced to be there every day, with no brakes till after its all over. Thats no fun. But now, I'm free to do what ever I want. i can wake up when ever, I can eat whenever, i can leave whenever. I can do what ever my heart desires, and its a GREAT feeling.

Three (and final): Anna
U knew it would come, me mentioning Anna for the great summer! I know how the readers work! anyway...
Without Anna there beside me, i wouldnt have a summer. I would have spent the past 2 months, playing video games, and gaining weight. i would have been REALLY bored. But Anna came into my life before the summer started. Since the summer began, we've seen eachother EVERY day, with exception to the week I was away at camp, and some random, unfortunate wednesday. Its not that we feel we HAVE to be together, its that we WANT to be together. I love her more than anything else, and she has made me the happiest guy on Earth. Shes everything I could ever want in a partner. Shes nice, shes funny, shes pretty, shes smart. WHATS NOT TO LOVE!? I know those are basic requirements of every guys dream girl, but Anna has met them all! The best part of it all, is that she loves me back, for all the same reasons! Its an incredible feeling knowing that ur loved back with the same amount of passion that u urself have given. Without her, Id still have video game obsessions, and I would ALWAYS wish to be the daredevil who gets the girl in action flicks. Whenever I would see a love scene in a movie, and Im sitting with my parents, i would almost every time, get uncomfortable watching it. I dont know why, but since Anna joined my life, Ive lost that uncomfortable feeling! We have the perfect relationship, and all either of us wants to do is be with eachother. I never believed it possible that I could be this happy with anyone in high school. I only hope that this continues on till long AFTER school. All I want is her. And for right now, I have everything I want.

so thats my review on the greatest summer EVER!

¶ 2:12 AM //

since Ive come back from camp, (my update can be viewed in my other blog, where I accidentally posted my journal entry...) Anna and my relationship has seemed to grow thrice over. At least on the passionate side that is. Since I got better from being sick, we've kissed a lot more than usual, and its only gotten better! But it seems as though it might be getting TOO intense, or TOO passionate. Sure, we both love every minute we're together, and we DEFINETELY love showing it. However, recently, we've become SO passionate, that we're fearing for our moral beliefs, common-sense, and our decision making... We cant seem to tone it down any, because losing any of our passion would symbolize deterioration in our relationship! and we cant have that!!! We both seem to not care about responsibility or morals while we're together, but we should learn to care, and fast! I know that I at least have made decisions and done things that I probably shouldnt, and Im sorta disapointed in myself for it. So I can at least start redemption by going back to the ways were BEFORE I went to camp. Our relationship is perfect in every way, dont misread me! I just fear that if we continue our current course, then regretful actions will occur, and someone may get hurt.
I'm sorry to the reader that I cant go more into specifics, but its really none of your concern. Just know that Anna and I are fine, we absolutely LOVE eachother, and I'm just concerned for our morals.
(This seems to be amongst the more depressing posts ive typed... :\ )

¶ 11:53 PM //

For the past few weeks, Anna, the best girl ON THE EARTH, has seemed to take over all subject matter of my blog... and she has.
This has not changed too much for this article....

I've seen Anna nearly EVERY day since vacation started, and its been the best summer of my life because of it. She knows this, I know this, THE READERS know this. But I feel it bears repeating.

The past few days have been Anna filled, just like always, but now we use my pool whenever its TOO hot. Lately, the water has been just right for swimming, and we've had the best time in it.
But the future holds some hurdles for us to overcome...

I'm off to Daniel Webster college for a week for a summer aviation training camp (I'm leaving next monday, so I wont be posting again till the next sunday), where I'll hopefully learn the basics as to how to fly. However, as amazingly excited I am for this to come, it means Anna and I will be separated for a week. Thats the longest we've been apart since April! We'll survive and everything, but neither of us will b as happy as we could be.
In addition, we have to worry about senior pics, sports, school shopping, etc, and its all seemingly pointless when all we want, is to just be together...

Its all kinda chaotic, and i'm probably making too much of a big deal, but i wouldnt have it any other way.

¶ 2:27 AM //

Guess what readers! Anna is STILL the key focus of my life!
so if ur disgusted with hearing all this mushy stuff, then stop reading!
Yesterday, ANNA came over for a long while. She helped me weed the garden, and after, we went into the pool to cool off. After the pool, we went on the hammock to dry off and cuddle :)
After we finally left the hammock, I got subway, while Anna, unable to chew comfortably, had ice cream for lunch.
I really like the livingroom sofa, cause its comfortable, has a great view of the tv, good to cuddle on, and its green.

Today was a good day as well
I went to Anna's and eventually, her dad drove us to Whites farm, where we bought other ppls junk for practically free! I got like 4 swiss made knives that have been confiscated by the airport authorities. FOR ONLY LIKE FORTY CENTS EACH!!! After, we went to my place, and hung out for awhile, then we had subway for dinner. After dinner, we all went to my sister's theater camp production of "guys and dolls." it was a good production, and all was fine. then Anna went home, and i was really tired, so naturally, I'm putting off sleep to blog and further talk to Anna! (thank goodness that the internet was invented!)

¶ 1:33 AM //